Tuesday, March 03, 2009


To borrow a phrase from Erin Zammett Ruddy, today is my 3rd Cancerversary. It was three years ago this evening when I received that fateful call from the doctor. "I just got your blood work back. You white count is extremely high. I think you might have leukemia and need to go to the hospital right now." So much for the dinner I had brought home. That is where this journey began.

Three years later, I have a very different perspective from those early days of the unknown. Yes, I still worry about my PCR test values coming back the way they should. In fact, I am waiting on one right now. The main difference is that I do not focus on CML on a daily basis. There are many days when I do not think of it at all. I feel some distance between myself and the devastating potential of this disease. Let's hope it remains that way.

As for the Cancerversary, I am not sure if it is a day to celebrate or to mourn. Regardless, I think it is worth acknowledging that this was an important day in my life and one I will never forget.


Annie - Steven's mom said...

Three years, so many fears, feelings and one incredible learning curve...... and it's good, it's all good right now. How wonderful.

I am thinking that maybe these anniversaries mark the day that everything changed, but not in an all bad way. Look at just how much has been achieved because you were diagnosed - such a difference you and yours have made, despite and because of your leukemia.

Three years.... may the zero be added behind that with relative ease, and then more too.

love and light

Anonymous said...

I was very proud to be at the Bright Lights event with you. I am proud of all of us and everyone's support for you and everyone's support for us as a family. We love you.
Mom and Dad